Reflections

Wednesday, June 26, 2013, today is my 72nd birthday! Turning 72 has made me do a bit of thinking. During my lifetime I have made a lot of mistakes but mostly, I have regrets. My biggest regret was not accomplishing anything on my own. I have always relied on someone else. First, it was my parents. Then it was my husband and then [how sad is this] it was my children. I have never worked a full-time job, and I’ve never had the desire to be a successful person in my own right. When I was younger, I dreamt of being a teacher but never did anything to attain that goal. You can call it laziness or you can say I’m not very bright but in reality deep down all I’ve ever wanted was to be a good mother and wife. I didn’t do such a good job with that either. I got married at 19, had my first son Kenny at age 20, had my second son Steven at 23 and was divorced from my first husband at 25. I remarried five years later to the love of my life Mel. With that marriage I became a mother for the third time with Jamie. As my boys grew up I lived vicariously through them. Even today, when they would travel I would want to know every detail of their trips. I I remember years ago when I would buy something the salesperson would say this item would last you the rest of your life and you have a lifetime warranty! Being 72 years old you start to think about that. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not feeling sorry for myself, I’m just facing reality! I’m just beginning to live my own life and trying to be responsible for myself. Whatever happens in the future is just my destiny. But for today, I’m going to have a good birthday, in fact, it’s going to be a wonderful day.

 
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16 thoughts on “Reflections

  1. I hope you have a fantastic birthday! And, we all have regrets. We all wish we could have done more. I truly believe most of us just do what we can and did what we believed to be the right thing as life took us through its trials.

  2. I, for one, am extremely happy God chose to bless us with your life! Sweet, kind, thoughtful, intelligent Deanna Adler. I think you would have made an excellent teacher if you had been given the support to become your own person. We women are trained from practically the cradle to help everyone else become whole but not ourselves.
    I think the desire to be a good wife and mother is beyond noble. It is the product of grace and I am grateful for yours!
    If your birthday wasn’t so great, just remember we can always, always begin again.

  3. I figured I’d pay a short visit and found out you just turned 72! I’m 44 and feel old! As much as I still have almost 30 years to be where you are now, I know that I will always make mistakes and makes me wonder what wrong I must be doing now. But wow, you are such an inspiration. Today indeed is the day we start the rest of our lives. We are all such imperfect humans but you did your very best in the circumstances you were in during different times of your life. I know that for a fact because I’ve been there and still living it. God bless you Ms. Adler! You are loved.

  4. This is the first post I’ve ever read of yours. I cannot believe how well it resonates and how similar our life paths are for very similar reasons. This post was so honest, I nearly cried. You are truly an inspiration and I hope you had a wonderful birthday, Deanna!

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