I have never thought of myself as a mother of a rock star. To me he has always been just my son, never a rock star. Those years when he was in Guns N’ Roses were so hard on all of us. I never want to live like that again! The lies, the pain of not talking to my son, of not knowing where he was. His little brother being so hurt because Steven didn’t want to be in Jamies life. How do you tell a young boy that his brother is a drug addict and wants nothing to do with him or his family. No! I don’t want to live like that.