This morning I woke up and checked my e-mails. I had 28 messages! I thought what’s going on? I usually only have three or four messages. I started opening up the e-mails and they are saying things like ’be strong’  ‘we’re with you’  ‘don’t give up’  and ‘our prayers are with your family’.  I called my son Jamie and find out that Steven is back in a rehab. You see, my family doesn’t say anything to me when they hear something upsetting about Steven because they don’t want to hurt me and they know how worried I am about Steven and how much I love him. Eventually I find out what’s going on from complete strangers. Even Jamie doesn’t know which rehabilitation center Steven is in. I don’t know what happened with him with Jamie told me that he voluntarily went into a rehab, but other than that even he knows nothing. I looked on the Internet and see that he has canceled his world tour. I also have a call into my daughter-in-law Carolina. But as of now no return call. It is sad to say but in Steven’s world I do  not exist! We have had many problems through the years but no matter what, I am still his mother and I love him very much. I can take his mental abuse toward me because of my love for him. I don’t care what anyone says. All a mother wants for her child and he is My child is to be safe and healthy and have the best that life can bring them. I’m glad that he has gone into rehab. There was a time when I was so ashamed but not anymore because now I know that he has a disease and I know he can be helped. I wish I could help him but I also know he is the only one that can make things better for himself. I hope he knows that I love him very, very much and if he needs me , all it will take is a simple phone call. Please say a prayer for my son Steven and for me and my family. We can use all the prayers we can get! I will keep you posted if anyone calls me. It’s true when they say the ones that love the most are the last to know!